Dealing with a job, dealing with bills, dealing with life. It's just so much dealing. There's no wheeling. It's all dealing. Sometimes I wonder what I should do. Maybe it wouldn't be such a bad idea to go homeless for awhile. Just to see what it's like. Sure, I'd have to make sure I could get food every day and find a decent place to sleep at night, but I could pull it off if I really wanted to. I'd have to be really careful, though. I don't want to be arrested for sleeping in public. Supposedly that's a crime. Sleeping in public. Come on. That's nothing to be punished. That's a modern miracle of science. To "get away for awhile" is a term often used when people leave their current situation for a length of time that's not really determined. When they come back, they usually have a new perspective on life and really change for the better. Sometimes I wish I could just get away for awhile, you know, to some place where nobody knows me and I can just relax, with no pressure and no worries. And when I come back, I'll have this new-found way of looking at the world, a way that most people would find enlightening. But I have to figure out where to go, what to see, and how to do it in an efficient manner. I should save up all my money and just go. Go to New York or California and just blend in. You know, to see the sights and feel the sounds. It would be an amzing trip, as I've never been to either of those places and would reallly like to confirm their existence. Because if I haven't experienced them firsthand, how can I be sure they're acutally out there. And Las Vegas. I want to go there to see the lights and flashing casino signs and the blackjack tables, the roulette wheels, just all of it. I should take a roadtrip in about a year. Just get out there and explore. I need to to that. It will soothe my soul. I wonder if anyone else is thinking like this now. I'm sure they are, but most people aren't as explicit about it. I am yearning to see the world, but without all that passport stuff you gotta do and all of that paperwork you have to fill out. Why should I have to do all that just to leave the country? It's not like I'm going to smuggle drugs back in here. I just want to go to places I've never been and see sights I've never seen. That's all I want to do. I don't want to even take pictures. I just want to see them. I just want to feel the people there and understand them. I wanna get away for awhile...